Really should I be doing a blog? I can't keep up with the damn thing but it is such the release I want and there it is. A bank page waiting to be filled up as I watch the keyboard and type. This past month has been crazy. Between trying to take off in my business and the kids it has literally been hectic. I love it and wouldn't trade it for a single minute. The things that I have learned the past few weeks working with clients is something that I cannot buy. Good and bad. It has really been draining. I am a people pleaser. Always have been unless you piss me off... That is a different blog that will probably never happen. So a little fill in of the past month or 2, okay probaby two. Its been great. My kids are finally healthy! No more crap but although it is seriously coming to light that my daughter has asthma. Her daddy had it bad as a child and luckily we are only on one treatment a day, sometimes 2. It breaks my heart every single time that I have to put that medicine in the nebulizer and hear that brrrrrrmmmmmm of the motor. It breaks my heart to hear her wheeze when she is just playing like any normal healthy child would do. It haunts me;. It really does and I can't fix it. i cannot hold her close and say everything is going to be okay because really I am scared. I am scared at night when she is sleeping or if she crawls in our bed at night. Each cough my belly tightens. I cry,. I do. But I am thankful she is here with me. I know she will grow out of this but for now I am scared. She is becoming such the young lady. The one thing that I instil in my kids that I think is a lost art is manners. The excuse me, or yes please, thank you or even yes mam no mam or sir is something not seen often! I will be damned if my child is rude to a stranger. I do correct her and right there in front of them. i do not wait. Victoria is very respectful to others. Okay maybe not kids her age but adults get the good stuff :)
Well I started this this morning and I will probably finish up tomorrow :) Damn I love my life. With everything that has happened in the past it has made me who I am today. I wouldn't change it for anything!!!!
